the dancer ! en pointe*

Tuesday, January 15

ive got nothing to do. so im here.
thats so not true. ive got a TONNE of stuff to do. including homework, studying, being nice to my family and friends, and being emo.
NOT in that order. sigh
i was just reading ash's and nessa's and cris' blog. and now i feel how distant i am from them
i saw my lovely bestie nessa on webcam yst (:
it was such a pleasure, i tell you, seeing that woman. :D
i just have this image of her going crazy when i came on webcam. haha. she was hilarious :D
i need someone like that in my life.
and i just realise how much im missing out on, being over here.
missing out on all my friends back home.
sigh
these holidays just have been so effing screwed up.
i dont think ive been this emo in my life for such a long time running. srsly
ive been blaming skl for it. and year 12 and exams and all.
but.. how much can skl do to ur life?
because of skl, ive had emo problems with self and skl and friends and family
what other problems can a person come up with, seriously?
ive just been moping around, waiting for the next day to come so that i can start afresh
but guess what happens when the next day comes along?
NOOO. nic. start TOMORROW.
wahlao. die can?!
i had a panic attack one night. in the holidays. about friggin SCHOOL
who has a panic attack about SCHOOL on a holiday night? sersiously
i was just having a brain attack. sigh
someone give me a remote control to forward this year.
i thought it'd be so much fun with friends and ending and graduating and spending the last year i can with friends
yes. i thought that'd be the case.
but this holidays.. not even tha tmuch study. more friends. and guess what?!
i cnt enjoy friends cos im too friggin stressed out about skl!
and. ANYONE. as if anyone reads this.

anyone knows how to transfer playlists from one computer to another? poobum. as if im going to transfer song by song onto a playlist. and i like my playlists ALOT can. sigh. OKAYYY.

THIS DAY. pact to myself. stop being emo. start doing work and being productive. be physically, academically and emotionally productive.
wtf?
anyway. im going to start waking up before 11 everyday. do WORK! and if i really have to, go out and do work. ill probably be more productive there. sigh. WAHHHHHHHH.

and you.
as i stare into its eyes now, black and full of sincerity, wisdom and love. it looks at me, as if saying: the answer's staring right at you in the face... I KNOW! stop giving me that look.

i want to dance ... 6:52 PM ---------

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty-handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'
Don't let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

Dance

i hope you'll dance

[with me*]]

i danced to the music with YOU